so there’s a pretty attractive tutoring job that has popped up. I’ll be giving them a call tomorrow.

tomorrow I also tells the bosses that there’s a good chacne I’m heading to california.

Because today I received student loan notification that I’ve gotta start repaying back interest on stafford loans. which is kind of bullshit, since I’m still a full time student out at pacifica for next year.

apparently one receives a master’s degree and one’s education is over.

regardless of that, if I can’t swing deferrment status there, that’s an extra $300 a month I’ve gotta be paying.

ain’t going to happen at any part time jobs in this town.

Also, the full wrath of the ‘rents has come out. Now they believe that its a better idea if I wait a couple of months. that’s not going to happen.

but if I don’t do it now, it won’t happen. Because in a couple of months, then its christmas, or the roads are bad, or it’s winter, you can’t move now, and then spring rolls around, and there’s a whole slew of new reasons not to move out.

I haven’t told them that this is what will happen, because they’ll deny it. And it may be completely unconscious, but I’ve seen it happen, I’ve done it myself.

Hell, I did it to myself right after undergrad, and ended up staying an extra two years here to finish my master’s degree when I wasn’t really that interested in an english grad degree in the first place.

I can notice the signs, and I KNOW the outcome of the excuses. it is being here for even longer. which would be fine…if I could pay my damn bills. which WILL NOT HAPPEN IN THIS TOWN AT THIS TIME.

also, the ‘rents think I should hold out for a job that will pay me to relocate. yeah, like that’s going to happen.

also, what is really entertaining to me is that people(more than just my family) are popping up this reason to dissuade me from moving: there’s a lot going on right now, and it’ll be stressful to be moving.

WHERE THE FLYING FUCK WAS THIS ADVICE WHEN I WAS WORKING AT THE HOSPITAL, TEACHING COLLEGE CLASSES, AND GOING TO TWO GRAD SCHOOLS AT ONCE!?!?!?

but, apparently, now that I’m down to one job, and only one grad school, NOW’S when my life is stressful.

yeah, this particular line of arguing does not hold any water.

depending largely on what the bosses say on the morrow in the coming days, that’s what’s important right now.

but chances are that I’m moving.

get used to the idea.

drove down to the cities and back.

my mind not work gud rite now.