I’m at a point in writing my papers that I really don’t like. I’m making some comparisons and have preliminarily set up the argument in the introduction, and have made the sentiments about the necessary situations.

now all the rest of the writing is doing a step by step comparison…basically plugging in each side, and drawing mini conclusions the whole way through, that lead into the big conclusion at the end of the story. In this part there’s no creativity, there’s no juice in writing the paper.

and it just seems like I’m wasting both the reader’s time and my own in these sections. I’ve made my argument, they can see OBVIOUSLY HOW EVERYTHING FITS TOGETHER, why should it need to be made known to the tiniest detail.

I plan my papers out very well…maybe too well. I have what I want to say figured out before hand, have the quotes all ready to plug in with my arguments…I agree it’s not very organic but when you’ve got limited time, planning before writing saves weeks of rewrites. It’s how I made it through two grad schools at once.

Unfortunately, this is beginning to feel like repitition, doing what’s been done a hundred times before, with no substantial benefit to it.

academic writing is starting to die for me.

I wrote some copy yesterday. 3 short paragraphs on the web. took all of 10 minutes, and it sounded relatively decent. the site isn’t live yet, so you can’t see it, too bad. that came easy, a snap.

I haven’t done any creative writing since February.

I really didn’t mind copy writing. It’s easy. I may be seduced by the dark side.

As for academic writing, I’m hoping it’s just the crunch in the summer, with the new job 3 papers due this week, one the week after, and one 3 weeks after that…and I have absolutely no interest in writing 2 of the 3 due on thursday. and it’s killing my initiative for the third one that I’ve done my research on, the one I want to write(even though it’s largely plugging in data into an already brilliantly formed concept).

I feel like I’m selling out. Not selling out by the copy writing, not even selling out by taking so long to get back to creative writing.

Selling out by writing papers for classes that were a waste of time.

(even if the papers are well laid out and organized and make perfect sense)

still…selling out.

Is growing up equivalent to doing shit you don’t want to do just to get to the next goal?

I have to go to one today.

Bleh.