time to watch el dvd. Take my mind off of all the grading I had to do today.

I still have 7 to go, but I’m 2/3rds of the way done with those, so it shouldn’t take too long tomorrow morning.

what the hell am I supposed to do? Grading papers and I’ve come across one that pointed out exactly the questions I’ve been wondering myself about these assignments:

What the hell’s the use? Why should someone try to revise something that they got a good grade on, that no one is ever going to read, that there’s no point to? Moreover, why write that paper? Just because the teacher asked you to?

I answered myself those questions with the mantra “practice practice practice”, and that worked until now.

See, what makes this worse is this: the student is doing well. She’s one of the better writers both in ideas and in organization. She knows what she’s doing at writing, but she’s not applying herself much because of those questions above. If these critiques had come from someone else, someone who was doing poorly, I’d have assumed that it was because of this they weren’t trying and getting bad grades.

this person is doing great, and doesn’t really need this class. I think the biggest hit to me here is that BSU is wasting her time making her take the class, moreoever, I’m wasting her time.

goddammit.

are catching up to me. I’m not giving in to panic yet, but the breaking point is close. perhaps closer than it was last year when my ignorance of what I was getting into protected me.

how the blazes did I ever think I was going to teach, attend 2 grad schools, and work at the hospital?

just gotta make it through May. After that, well, that’s a whole ‘nother ball of wax and panic that I’m not touching yet.

and people wonder why I’m short tempered.