something’s gotta change here. I’m going crazy in boredom. Yes, Pacifica and BSU together are great, and it takes my mind off of my current situation…which is this: nothing is changing.

I still have the same job, go to the same school, have the same car, live in the same place, have the same social functions, have the same cat, deal with the same idiocy..that I’ve had for the last five years.

nothing significant has changed.

but something is in my chest…something that says “don’t worry change is coming.” something tells me this. of course, it isn’t based on anything real. Just flashes of conversations, news, what-have-you here and there. One of my major problems is that people will say things, and I’ll read into them. And give them some interpretation based on whatever. whether from overactive imagination, wild hope, or some form of caffeine addiction, reading into things is often a mistake as people never meant what I thought they meant. so it works great that I’m in Pacifica, because with Jung, that guys reads into everything.

or maybe it’s just that one or two people whose statements and actions that I read into, and they were really assholes. maybe it’s a little bit of both.

regardless, it feels like I’m holding my breath along with everyone else in the world…afraid to smell change.

gotta love it.

so, get this! I had called sallie mae last week…yadayadayada.

Today I get an e-mail back from the financial aid person at Pacifica. Apparently, roundabouts June 2nd…my particular issue got “hung up”.

I can’t stop giggling!?!?!? She quoted those two words exactly like that in the email. EXACTLY LIKE THAT. and she gave an exact date! First things first: how does an issue get “hung up”? As in the paper got stuck to somebody’s cubicle and they couldn’t get it down? As in they posted it on a bulletin board on what NOT to do, and they can’t get it down? As in it got filed in the out bit and taken out with the trash?? JESUS CRIMINY!!! HOW THE BLAZES DOES SOMEONE GET SOMETHING LIKE THIS FOR THE PRICE TAG OF $4105 FUCKING “HUNG UP”??????????

what the hell? And don’t get me started on June 2nd. What the hell was June 2nd? By all accounts it wasn’t even a MONDAY OR A FRIDAY!! If it was one of those days, I could understand a bit more what had happened…but June 2nd was a THURSDAY. What the flying fuck happens on a thursday!??!?

I’m completely flabbergasted. If I wasn’t planning on writing more today, I’d have a goddamned drink.

You are Vlad the Impaler. The man behind the legend
of Dracula. You hanged your victims, stretched
them on the rack, burned them at the stake,
boiled them alive, but mostly impaled them.
Most of your killings were politically targeted
but sometimes you killed just because you were
bored. Your “reign of terror” lasted
from 1456 to 1462. Estimated numbers of victims
vary between 30,000 and more than 100,000.
Evil Evil man. Fie on you!

Which Imfamous criminal are you?
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this is funny because of the “Fie on you!”

I love it. I’m sitting typing and writing, and an entirely new story arc pops up out of nowhere. It helps solidify future events in the story.

I’ll admit it, on the book project everything that I’m posting is over a year old so far. I did the second quarter of the book(which may be second third…not entirely certain yet) this fall, and that hasn’t even gotten to being posted yet.

And now I’m back to writing again. And things are falling into place. It’s a good feeling.

Alexander the Great had conquered the known world by then.

this guy has conquered the world of video games.

I’m damned lucky if I’m able to conquer my nigh overwhelming dread of the outside world when I get my paper in the morning.

*sigh* the sad part about this is that soon there will be nothing left to conquer by the time I’ll get around to it. what’s a megalomaniac with delusions of grandeur supposed to do?

I guess I’ll just write.