a new (expletive deleted) job.

I need a job that I don’t HATE going to. I need a job that I enjoy enough to get up and go to, rather than lay in bed for an extra 20 minutes wanting nothing more than to be able to get up and NOT go to my job. I need a job that once I arrive, I don’t feel the need to hop on this blog and start bitching about it. I need a job where the people who work there GET ALONG, where there isn’t non-stop backstabbing and complaining and nitpicking and whining. I need a job where the majority of the people who show up for services appreciate what you do and don’t glare at you for doing your job. I need a job where everyone respects everyone enough to complain to the person they have a problem with, rather than to everyone else. I need a job that doesn’t degrade my generally optimistic view of humanity to the point of hatred.

Because I hate feeling like this, I hate telling coworkers to complain to the boss rather than me, I hate not being able to get any work done during the day, I hate not being able to hang out with friends because I’ve got to work.

I need a new job where the benefits outweigh the limitations.

$200,000 for dumping waste into the chicago river.

All right, where’s my money for the waste they’ve been dumping into the radio?

I made some mistakes earlier when I was talking to Sue, Hildegard has been known about for quite some time, not just since the 80’s, but that is when she started gaining more influence, especially in terms of her music.

Born: 1098, 10th child
Died: 1179

She was known for her visions and her preaching throughout Germany. She was held in high esteem by her peers, as well as by the government officials and the popes. She wrote on varying subjects from medicine to poetry to music. The Holy Roman(albeit, he was neither) Emperor Conrad wrote to her, and she met with the Emperor Frederick Barbarossa.

There were two books on medicine that survived the 12th century…both were written by Hildegard. She wrote over 70 symphonies, and several books of her visions and her preaching.

She vehemently opposed the Cathars, who brought up again the Manichean ideas of duality. Hildegard denied this duality of soul and body, saying that the glory of God could only be seen through a soul and body united, she also denied the evil of women that the Cathars believed. The cathars thought that the body was evil, and that women were part of that evil because of the feelings they aroused in men. Hildegard believed that Men only acheived the full perfection of holiness with women, and vice versa, neither one was a complete holy being without the other.

She was also a pirate AND a ninja.

Well, I made that last line up, because that would have been the only way for Hildegard to be more of a cool person.

a book with the primary information is Hildegard of Bingen: Inspired Conscience of the 12th Century by Regine Pernoud, trans. by Paul Duggan.

tonight at work.

We have these things called ‘Code boxes’ for when a patient goes critical up on the floor. Then the nurse hits a button upstairs., and we page overhead the code to whichever room shows up. Spare nurses and docs run up to that room as fast as possible to help out. The code box alarm goes off until the nurse hits the cancel button

About half the time these things are in error, and the code box will go off very briefly, two or three seconds and then shut off. In these cases, we call the floor to make sure that they don’t need a code, and we don’t page them overhead.

My coworkers today asked if they had done the right thing in the situation where the code had gone off briefly by calling the floor. I said yes, and told them the next time it happens to use their discretion.

I then realized my error.

Working with the people at this desk you NEVER depend on their discretion, because they have no common sense. Case-in-point: We had a hard and fast rule about pregnant patients, anything over 20 weeks went upstairs to OB, else they were seen in the ER. Of course, if the were 24 weeks and had the sniffles, we sent them to ER on common sense.

Or rather, most of us did. A coworker had a fit when an OB patient came in and she sent them to ER instead of to the floor, and a ‘policy’ had to be initiated where the Emergency Room nurse ALWAYS sees them if they haven’t talked to OB. Of course, when people who have common sense talk to the pregnant women, find out they’re 34 weeks pregnant, and are having cramps, we send them to OB rather than have them wait another 15 minutes for a triage nurse to tell us that.

Anyway, tonight, I told them to ‘use their discretion’, and I was greeted by three blank looks. After five minutes and rethinking what I told them, I told them to just call the code, regardless.

You could honestly feel the relief from the coworkers. They smiled and said ‘That’s what we thought’, and ‘I was confused when you said previously, but now it’s better’.

Lesson learned: do not depend on idiots to be able to use their discretion.

I’ll admit it. Today, I called Pacifica’s office, and left a message for them to call me. I waited up an hour, until about 3:30. And then I went to sleep.

I was supposed to call a friend today in the afternoon. instead, I went to sleep.

Homework beckoned to be done, but instead I went to sleep.

When you work nights, it becomes almost an obsession to get as much sleep as you can. if sleep were gold, I’d be the dragon hoarding the stuff. Man, I love sleep. A night’s successfulness is judged on the amount of hours of sleep you get during the day. Usually my nights are horrible horrible times of trying to stay awake, on those days I get 4-5 hours of sleep. sometimes though, sometimes, I have enough sleep. Sometimes like today, I had 9 hours. 9 hours of glorious sleep.

Yes. That is my sin: I love sleep too much.

is not right.

And I don’t know if its the subject, or the fact that I was tempted to bid on it until I noticed the price was over $100.

• get 1/2 of my Greek Myth paper done
• get a working outline typed out for sacrifice
• figure out where Hildegaard of Bingen and Carl Jung intersect(somewhere about mandalas)
• get a working outline done for contemp(tible) writers and theory

family guy short intro.

Stop it! Stop it.

my groups final project sums up everything I learned this semester.

it’s sort of a hypertext/choose your own adventure, so enjoy.

it’s freakin’ awesome.

went precisely as how it had gone before some %$&* undergrad complained to the chair. We met, talked about ideas for the paper, and covered what we were supposed to have done for homework today. Then she let us go because of the river’s meeting project.

it was great. We were out by 3:30.

oh well. One more class to go. I’ll be doing the happy dance after next wednesday. God willing, I’ll have the paper done for Contemp Theory, the papers done for mythology, and all of BSU’s classes will be wrapped up.

Then it’s time to start reading for Mythology session. And easy street for the next 3 months.

I can’t even get started on these summaries.

I hate summaries. They are possibly the most worthless things ever, required by teachers who don’t trust their students enough to do the work. I’d rather take a TEST than do summaries. Summaries are a waste of time, unless they’re going to be brought up in class and used.

If you’re a teacher, and you require summaries FROM GRAD STUDENTS, then there is something fundamentally flawed about your class setup.

nothing says ‘politically correct’ like euphemisms.

and absolutely non-good dagnasty evil continues.

My alarm got bumped into ‘radio’ mode tonight. Which means that I don’t wake up. Which means that my Dad(whom I rent the trailer from) has to come into town and knocks on my door to wake me up at 12:50AM. Which means I was 2.5 hours late for work. Which hasn’t happened to me since the first year I worked nights, something like 4 years ago.

*sigh*

They were afraid at work that I was injured/killed. I think I disappointed them by walking in late, having overslept.

Now, one may wonder, why the radio alarm going off didn’t wake me. I sleep usually(when i have to work nights) with my computer playing tunes and a fan right next to my head on high. My neighbours play extremely heavy bass music, loudly. This white noise cancels them out. As well, the phone in my room has the ringer turned off, and the cell phone was in the kitchen. There were no back ups in place should my alarm fail.

Oh well. Par for the course of this week. Pacifica hasn’t gotten back to me about financial aid yet, I’ve got something like 7 summaries and a 3 page poet paper due tomorrow, and I still haven’t started on my myth papers yet, though research is more or less done.

Oh well. I’ll make it. I always manage somehow.

it’d be nice if I got fired for this. it’d be great.

*sigh*

in case anyone is interested, the website is here.

enjoy it.

that Franco-German leaders urged the french to do something, wasn’t in a little tiff we like to call world war 2 when a puppet govt was installed in france?

like I’m sure the french people would LOVE to do something a german told them they should.

France: show a little bit of spine(FOR ONCE) and vote NO to the EU constitution.

Chirac also stated “If we vote No we take the responsibility for interrupting 50 years of European construction”…which would be the first time that the french have taken responsibility for anything since the revolution.