You know, this place…this place is a horrendous mockery of all that is right and holy. It really is. After 3 days at Pacifica, it makes me extremely uneager to return back to Bemidji, for the grad school here. Now, don’t get me wrong…the classes here for english are probably not worse than anywhere else.. .and in fact, I enjoy some aspects of these classes. But requiring me to take american lit 1, AS AN UNDERGRADUATE CLASS, is somewhat demeaning. The grad classes are ok though.

It’s just that I don’t want to do this right now. I don’t want to do the work, and I don’t really want to go to BSU. The money aspect(the extra I get from loans) is nice, because it pays for the extra I need for Pacifica, but let’s be honest: I could work extra at the hospital and make the extra money that I need, and not have to show up for classes at BSU.

So why the hell am I going to BSU, one may ask? There are really only two things keeping me here, two things that will keep me present when I really would like to just drop the whole kit and kaboodle and go elsewhere.

1. Web Design and Developement class. Dr. Morgan was kind enough to give me a TA position helping out in this class for grad credits, and I really do enjoy it. The only downside is that I’m not as skilled at it as I’d like so my presentations are somewhat slanted at times. And they gave me a copy of Macromedia’s Dreamweaver, so it proves that BSU has some good aspects.

2. Sci-fi/fantasy club. I’ll leave when we get a book out, which may be this year. This evening(or rather, last evening) we had a roundtable fantasy world discussion coming up with the world in which we could all write in. It was highly enjoyable, and helps to keep us focused at times. These people in this club, more than anyone else anywhere(even at Pacifica) are my peers.

These two things are enough to keep me here for the duration of my MA(through next fall, at the most…fingers crossed), and probably no longer. It’s just that I’ve found something that I enjoy much more than BSU, and want to devote my full attention to that…and more attention to my writing and my website that needs revamping, which I will get to eventually.

how’s that for whining?

dropping it like a bad habit. I’ll probably end up taking it next year, but ’s ok. Next year I’ll just have my 6 thesis credits and exams, and I’ll be done. Fuck you, BSU.