Ok there was a post here about violence against women, and I took it down.

Am I chickenshit? No, I had written something out that put the blame for violence at both the feet of the individual man and the individual woman.

Erin immediately replied lambasting me for not being a woman so I had no idea what they would be going through, and saying that the Man is the one who should be blamed completely and utterly. I replied to that and said that erin isn’t a man so couldn’t lay blame completely on the man because it takes two to tangle.

I decided then and there that NEITHER OF US knew exactly what was going on, and in the cases of abuse, it should really be taken as singular and unique in how things happen. I believe that both of us were vastly oversimplifying the problem, and thusly took the post down.

One thing that I’m sure EVERYONE agrees on: violence against women is one of the worst and most despicable actions that could ever happen.

will resume tomorrow probably, with many crazy happy posts about nothing in particular at all.

I’m tired. Tired of dealing with A) schools, B) friends, C) internet, D) life in general.

A) Waiting to hear from grad schools, to find out that your backup plan that you had is now kaput, due to favoritism among the teachers.

B) some people who you know you want to be less than friends with, and some whom you know who you want to be more than friends. *sigh*

C) Website hassles.

D) Life is just getting me down, having bad stuff pile up in the space of 4 days is a tiring experience.

Is it escapism to want to get out? If so, then escapism isn’t bad at all. In fact I rather enjoy it.

If there’s one thing that is ingrained within me it is a very strong abhorrence of both violence against women and violence against animals.

I cannot willingly hit either, and the only times that violent physical action has happened against either, it was a reflex action against an assault on myself. In the case of women, the girl hit me, and in the dog’s case, the thing bit me.

Even though…afterwards, I was ashamed.

Things are much better now that my site is working again. I don’t know if I can describe how it felt to be suddenly without something that was used everyday for the last 4 years, something that your friends and others use for direct communication with you.

A place that served as a gathering spot, for argument and fun. A place that was a gateway to other places on the world wide web.

Suddenly gone, and with nothing you could do about it for a short time. I’d imagine it could be likened to a favored restaurant, or bar, or library being closed down without notice.

I could not communicate…I had been silenced…not only on the blog here(which is admittedly new, so its absence was not felt so keenly), but on the comment board(where all my friends in other places meet and discuss) and on my email. I missed several emails sent to that address, probably won’t ever see any of them again. Apologies to Natasha and any one else who tried to send an email to that address.

A virtual tongue, eyes, and ears, cut off. And the most frustrating thing about it was the inability to change it. *shudder*

It hurt.