Y’know…

goddamn. GOD-FUCKING-DAMN IT ALL TO FUCKING HELL. IN A GODDAMNED WOVEN FUCKING HANDBASKET.

Well, fuck.

…yes, I’ve heard about the GA position.

1. I wish it weren’t lent so I could get smashed.
2. I wish Iced Cream could help this.
3. I wish…

well fuck wishing. It hasn’t done me any good in the past, it won’t do me any good now. I could rail against God for this, but what fucking good would that do? None, that’s fucking right. He’s been strangely silent lately. What the fuck.

I’d say this falls into the realm of bitter disappointment…it really shouldn’t, I know. But I pretty much thought I had this. It would have been a good plan, a brilliant plan. This is soul-searching-God-where-the-blazes-are-You kind of disappointment.

fuck.

Well, supposed to find out about the GA position at BSU today. So far no news…
and I’m going to take that as bad news.

Oh well.

At least my nap was brilliant.

still…a disappointment. This is almost enough to make me quit lent early and get ripped this eve.

Well, got sleep last night. That was great (joshcom.net!), and woke up this morning rested and recovered from the Passion of the Christ. I’ve got a good feeling about today.

So I went to class, and uff. I don’t know about that CNF class, but I’ve got only a little bit left to go and then I’m done with school, undergrad anyways. Possibly Big NEWS tonight about the future, but we’ll see. I’m a little worried about my email address, a friend sent something last night that I didn’t get, and its possible that she re-sent it today, but I haven’t gotten anything yet.

This worries me because the future news from whereever will probably come by email.

Anyways, today I get to go grocery shopping, go to the G-Rents for supper and some cribbage, and then get to watch a couple more Fawlty Towers episodes with Jon Hatch and Natasha. Good times.

Now, though, ’s time for a nap.

Well, another day done and gone. I got an hour here and there for sleep. People and the environment wasn’t so bad. I got my midterm reflection paper done for weblogs and wiki class. Kumdo went all right.

There’s a large possibility of failing my ranking test next week. I’m pretty worried about that actually…more practice this week and during the weekend, and perhaps I shall be up to speed. We’ll see.

I’ll be able to sleep tonight…nothing like physical exertion to drive depression out of the body, and replace it with tiredness. I need some optimism I think…but for that I’d need some of that crack cocaine. And I’ve heard its illegal and expensive.

That’s me…living life the only way I know how, because I can’t afford optimism.

Mmmmm….milk is good. Iced Cream is good too. I postulate this: Iced Cream should be eaten occasionally, like when you’ve had an exceptionally crappy day.

I’ve had my iced cream…have you had yours?